Silent Saturday

In true Baxley form, I am going to copy a great idea from a family member and do it myself. ;) Amy has me hooked on looking at her pictures, and I thought you might also enjoy some pics from the front lines, over here! So here goes, in no particular order...


Jellystone Park


Boys with their sheep riding trophies!


Getting ready to ride the sheep.


Eric trowing out the first pitch at the Astros game. Totally fun!


Boys hanging out with some clebs before the game... hehe.

The Winds are Changing...

Well, Ava and Ayden have moved to a new family. We were pleasantly surprised to get a phone call from the new foster mom the day after they left us. We have made public how perfectly our desires were matched to Gods will. The foster mom is word for word what we prayed for our sweet babies. Praise Jesus! We miss them very much, but are doing very well.


But NOW WHAT?? We are just trying to figure out what He has for our family. I have found a new appreciation for just hanging out with my boys. I have figured out that we don't have to do anything right now. We are planning several getaways, including Disney World in the early fall. Yipee!!


Eli and Cylas continue to keep us laughing. Eli saying his dinosaurs were running from creditors (predators) and Cyboo has taken his role as 'baby' back over with glee, insisting to be carried and sang to sleep. I will be keeping up with my blog a little better. Until next time.... good night! ;)

So, yesterday, we took family pictures. It was a riot Ava was such a HAM! She kept clapping and smiling, and putting on this coy little grin.
Ayden, the biggest smilier I have ever known, was completly stoic. He would not smile for ANYTHING!
Eli did pretty good, he is totally photogenic, so all his will look great, except the ones he is "smiling" in. The kid has the most terrifying fake smile I have ever seen. He also managed to fall out of the swing face first, during pictures. Oh, Eli, you are my child.
Cylas was very cooperative as usual. He smiled when told to, he put his hands in his pockets, and looked at the camera. I have no idea how they will all turn out, especially the one of all six of us. I do have a feeling, and it is not good! I wore a dress that I can't wear a bra with, that should have been my first clue, but no, I boldy 'bandaided up' and faced the camera. What a horrible idea?!

Painful, painful ordeal afterwards....

I will try to have some up as soon as we get them back! Three weeks is the word, right now.

The Twins

Well on Wednesday we got a call to take home six month old twins. One boy and one girl. Of course we said YES!! There is a catch, as of right now they are only foster. We are so in love with these precious babies. They are so incredibly personable. Ayden has already made so much progress. Ava is just rocking right along. Anyway, I am on pins and needles all of the time hoping and praying they don't come and take them from us. All of this is so new and no one knows what to expect. I want to ask a million questions of the case worker, like "do you think they will go back?, how often does this kind of thing turn in to adoption?, when will we know?, what will we know?" but i dont ask anything.... I just sit and wait, and wait and pray. Sometimes I want to scream that it is not fair that is has to go this way, but then I remember it may turn out just fine. Any way, I love my boys. They already love these little ones. Eli comforts them by saying, "it's ok, big brother is here" or "hey, its me, your big brother." Cy is doing great also, he wants me to hold him sometimes when i cant, but other than that he is loving it!

getting it off of my chest!!

Caution: I am about to whine a lot!

So Cylas and myself had the stomach virus, then Eli had it. In the middle of all of that I got a call from a CPS worker about a little baby boy who needed to be taken home from the hospital the next day. I was in such a bad place, I said 'no way.' Then I worried I made the wrong decision, so called back. They said that they might hold him until Monday. Well that was on a Thursday. We were informed on Saturday, that he had been given to another family. During all of this, Eric is selling fireworks, so I can't even talk to him!!
I am so down. I want to cry every time I think about it. I don't. I haven't even cried once. In fact, I really want a little girl, not a boy. But the truth is I am sooo ready to have her here!! I feel completely out of control of the situation. I bug our F/Ad Worker to death. I have no idea when she will come, how old she will be, or if it will even be a 'she.' I worry that I won't have enough stuff ready, when we do get the call. I worry that we have too much stuff ready, because we may never get the call. I stalk the internet sites looking for her. I shop for her. I try to prepare the boys but I don't really know how. I can't explain why I am sad to them. I feel overwhelmed with all of the requirements we have to meet each year, not to mention the unannounced visits. Yes, I have a 2 year old and a 4 year old, and I could have a visit from the person that says whether or not I am going to get another baby. And no, my house cannot stay spotless ALL of the time. No, I cannot look the part of a person who can handle another kid, ALL of the time. I think I am getting ulcers from worrying about it. I know I am gaining weight worrying about it. Please pray for us. I want a baby!!! I want her now!!!

There will probably be more post like this, because who wants to listen to this?? But you can stop reading anytime :)

P.S. Now Eric has the virus...

Visit with Ben

Well our adoption worker, Ben, came today. It was a routine check of our home. Everything went very well except he told us that our family was not selected for the little five year old girl. I'm a little down to be starting all over at square one again, but it is what it is. Please pray for us!!

The Symphony

We had so much fun at the Symphony with the boys on Saturday. They loved the Christmas music! We made it home with out them falling to sleep and so we all got good naps! That night we went to The Woodlands to do some shopping and just for fun, so we had a busy time. The Elf on The Shelf is coming out in the morning and I cant wait to see the boys reaction.